31 March, 2013

I'm upset.

I did not know that simply by having friends, or go out, my brother and my best friend Hugo were going to start excluding me slowly. Being always used to be only 3, these two started first by making stupid jokes about "being social," okay, but over time they began to take precipitated conclusions that I didn't have time or I don't want to be with them. They spend the afternoon playing League of Legends without asking me if I want to play.

I do not know if they notice it themselves.

Before, Hugo and I were slightly closer than Rodrigo, but it was because of our age. With time Rodrigo adapted to our way of being, and now, well.
They're all with the "having honor in not being social" thing, and I'm not included in that.

If they want to be, then fine. And that whenever someone moves away slightly from Hugo, he continues to think that person does not care about him anymore. He'll have many friends.

Maybe I'm just a bit annoyed.
But I don't like that my best friend ignores me as if we were no longer best friends just because I have more friends besides him.

(there, have your gossip.)

Amumu - Character from league of legends.

30 March, 2013

Nothing happens, which means:

Discuss some ideas! yay!

Ohhh, no, unfortunately today will not be able to gossip in my very interesting and full of adventure and drama life.

Theeeme of the day:

Racism!

Racism. How to combat it? Completely ignore what we see! Example:

Idiot n.1: "Remember Laura?"

Idiot n.2: "Errr ... Who was it?"

N.1 Idiot "Tall, blue eyes, blond."

Idiot n.2 "Ah, yes, that girl hot as shit."

What is the harm in that? None. (except for the "shit")
And now:

Idiot n.1: "Did you know yesterday I did a girl, Stacey."

Idiot n.2: "ah, I can not remember who she is ..."

Idiot n.1 "It was that black chick."

Idiot n.2 "Hey, don't be racist."

Eh? What the hell is this "idiot n.2"'re talking about?! It is a physical characteristic! Yes, she is black chick! Her skin is darker than that of whites, and probably is from another culture. As a person with blue eyes has   different eyes than people with brown eyes.

Let's see another case:

Fool n.1 "Stacey is pretty hot. Don't you think?"

Fool n.2 "Eh .. black chicks are not my style."

Fool n.1 "Hey! didn't knew you were racist!"

Shut up, "n.1 fool." Think always in relation between "blue eyes" and "dark skin" when they are in these cases. To me, it's the same thing.

Sometimes it doesn't hurt to make a few jokes! It's like the blonde jokes, everyone knows that when it comes to blonde, it's just an easy way to say "hot girl with a very rich dad snob", and, depending on the black jokes, also only mean those "thug life "ate yo mama" gangsta" even though everyone that blacks are just like whites.

Never heard of discrimination from other characteristics besides race, and I think the problem is that we are a bit in the situation where after all the problems with racism, society is still a bit too cautious to not be racist, kinda like two friends to each other "hey man, sorry, no hard feelings, k?" as if there was still tension between the two.

But the worst is that society is still very much used to being that way of anti-racist, that blacks are also used to being treated as if it was the non-racist way. So, much like the "idiot n.2" and "fool n.1" think that way of being is racist, even if it isn't, a black may also find it racist, and feel discriminated. In the end, the blame is no one's. It's just the simple evolution of things, many were accustomed to that's the way of being not racist, even if not, just as many were accustomed that blacks are evil, and should be slaughtered. What ends up saying that people pay more attention to how they were raised than their own logic, or maybe our logic is influenced by the way we were raised. Uh oh, here I go on another long logical thinking ... And that's how my mind works.

" It's all folks! "

28 March, 2013

Hey, hello people! (I'm really running out of new entries.)

Bad news. Looks like we will not go home this holiday.
I miss having a cozy house, my house. Without being in a mini T1, or a half furnished apartment or live with my uncles.

But well.

I do not know what to say in this post ... I write because I must write ...

Random Subject Time I suppose.

It is so strange sometimes even when having more friends, I feel alone. It seems I'm missing something ... And I can say that they are true friends.
I'll convince myself that I need no one to live. And yesterday I came to a conclusion. I say I do not need anyone to live, because I learned to live with myself, but maybe I'm like that because I never had a lot of people to share life with ...
Maybe it's about the thing about I never having much of a chance "with the ladies." Damn hormones, trying to mess with my mind.

And I think I'll try to do my art in a less egocentric way,I may have more success.

So bye, all for today.

  - To keep up the fun, comment! -

27 March, 2013

So folks.

Looks like the last post has no comments yet ... Which is a shame because I put the damn comments in a way that even a guy that ended up in my blog by accident can comment.

But hey - no stress bros.

Today I have a theme, that for me at least, is quite interesting. I'll make a reflection of my evolution as a person, personality and style.

(1 Giant Leap - Braided Hair)

"I have to tell everybody about myself." I was a little kid when it all started (of course) That kid's imagination that everything that travels in our head is true. Everything we see, feel, hear and end up by thinking and imaginating becomes truth. Basically, everything is so beautiful, fantastic, and perfect, fully forged by our head, which itself is shaped by everything that we take from the world.
As a child, I listened to what my father putted on the sound system during the morning of Saturday, "1 Giant Leap" and now I see how that made me like those things that touch us deep, that feeling that more environment and "Atmospheric" music, that makes us feel that"Nirvana"(not the band).
Sure I heard more things, but always in that quite jazz fusion, and that now, every time I analyze my life,  I discover so much about myself. It's quite enlightening.

Much more that influenced me as a child? Probably Peter Pan. Ha, but not like you think. Peter Pan in my head was much more than a tale, it was a world, a perfect, completely fantastic, ethereal world. A world full of nature, creatures, and cultural diversity, where you could FLY. Flying is practically the symbol of freedom. Ahhh, Freedom, with a very big L, the most important thing for me. In the end it was something far more serious than I see when I look at the Peter Pan now. It was my version of it, or at least what my head full of imagination took from him at the time.

Another thing you will see also as a simple game, but I saw as versions of the world, fantastic places - as a child, the real and the unreal is indistinguishable, and this brings much happiness - these games were:

- Oddworld Series;

- Sheep Dog 'n' Wolf;

- Rayman;

- Crusader of Centy;

Oddworld, a world of aliens with terrifying creatures, but also full of spirit misticity, no doubt a game full of art, with a character extremely well made, "Abe", which has powers to control other creatures through a sort of meditation. Most of the things that influenced me a lot in the field of strange worlds.



Sheep Dog 'n' Wolf, haha, a game about Ralph, a cousin of Coyote from Looney Tunes. Many think that Ralph is Coyote, but no. Ralph is a wolf, and he steals sheep from Sam, instead of chasing "beep beep".



But the most interesting thing, is that unlike the style of Looney Tunes, this game makes Ralph as a cool character, full of ideas, original, and in some way the game does not look as childish as the Looney Tunes.
The game is filled with a "soundtrack" with a fusion jazz / rock / funk, that makes a game much more stylish than the Looney Tunes, and so greatly influenced my musical taste. Listen here some soundtrack. (If you are reading this Cacciari, so it was just to say that this was the music I was listening to in your house and you said that was cool XD)




Rayman, that yes, very influential. Its style completely portrayed a world very "Nirvana", fantastic, and along with his music also that way described, gave quite a "high" mood to the kid I was. For those looking for this game, of all Rayman games, it's the first that was released.
Interestingly, the other Rayman games are nothing like that. And this, Michel Ansel, creator of Rayman, agrees. In fact, very recently, a new game Rayman "Rayman Origins" was released, which is quite in the style of the 1st game, but unfortunately with a soundtrack rather weaker (and Michel laments that, saying that he could not persuade the 1st game's composer to join to the project).
Obviously, once I found it, I bought the game and already finished. Quite cool, but it's not like when I was a child.




Crusader of Centy, this was probably one of the most beautiful stories I've ever seen in a game, and touched me like no other at the time, and even today. It changes the vision of a person when playing classic RPGs.
I will not spoil.



Well, I have not even played these games as a kid, I watched my dad play, and annoyed him to play, so it was like a movie, but told like a book, because every day he played about an hour, and it was like a chapter, and practically, were the games that shaped my childhood. And that's why I love games, and  why I like things in a more artistic way, and that blow my mind.

"It's just a game".

Oh yes, and after seeing so many different worlds, I reached a conclusion:
Our world is also fantastic, beautiful, mysterious, ethereal, perfect, and in a certain way, something in me makes me feel wrong not to be in complete natural state, and will only find peace when I'm in complete touch with it.

This is the lesson that my life has given me, and which I give you.

Now comment on this or the other previous post, Please.

26 March, 2013

Hey! Sorry to have made so few posts, but I always try to make them at the end of the day, so I can, well,  talk about my day. But it seems that it is interfering with my routine, so I have done just a few posts:

End dinner, play League of Legends, ends late, little time to do the post.
And do not tell me to change my LoL hour.

Well, I have to go to bed now, so I'll make this post with a simple purpose:

Argument!

C'mon! Everyone comment!

Theme of the day: My a bit theoretical idea of the previous post. Let's see if it works ... I have not had many comments ...
So I'll start by asking, whether they agree or disagree, and why.
Hopefully you have good grades at Philosophy.

Be the first! (or see if they already have comments.)

24 March, 2013

Get ready, this one is strong.
I'll show you my dream, what I wanted humanity to evolve.
(Listen to this while reading, and with headphones.)

No corruption, no pollution, no crime, no war. Simple communities, hunt, looking for food, plants, nobody works. children play, young people sing, dance, love.
Little stress. You don't have to work tomorrow, just walk around the mountains, with the purest air that people today have ever seen. the scenery is beautiful. At night, Wveryone celebrates with a campfire. Playing some songs, watch those starry skies that you maybe saw once.
Time is spent with this. No reason to be at war or fighting, it's all so simple.
Simple.

There are no rules. fust follow the basic moral, ethic.
Here productivity is to create, invent, tools, instruments, hunting weapons.

 Invent stories, myths, mysteries. It's like we're all kids again.
Just idolize nature. We have no sin, we are not destroying the land, we are not in a war, man does not kill, does not hate, because there is no reason to. Only love.
The human you know is no longer a parasite of the planet.

Look at you now. What you are today. What we have yet to do for tomorrow, that school work on the war of the 100 years, horrible thing, created by man. Or that inspection you will do tomorrow to that factory, to make sure that they are not completely destroying the environment.
So many hundreds die every day. CRIME. WAR. TORTURE.

But that does not happen, because we all live in small communities, peacefully, without problems.

Go camping. Look at the mountains. The starry sky.
If you do not agree that this idea is better than what we are today, then ok.
But do not complain abour what we are today. Neither of which will be tomorrow, because I do not see anything better to do.

And worse, as you are reading this on the Internet it means that you are part of the small percentage of people who have minimally comfortable lifes.

If we all wanted it, it had already happened. Cause. It. Is. So. Simple.

And if you do not want to ruin the "mood", do not read what is below:

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The world is like windows. We evolved the functional windows XP, to the cute and malfunctional Windows Vista.

22 March, 2013

Ah. Today I'm happy.

And the theme of the day is:

The shock and change.

It seems like I hit a second puberty. Before, I felt I was the only different person in the world. I felt alone, like no one understood me. The only one who liked music other than pop, The one who played an instrument, the only one who didn't want to party and gossip; The only one that dedicated himself to something. Obviously that's not common for a kid 12/13 years old to be like.

"Brazil is full of different people, multi-cultural, and I would easily find people like me!" I thought.
I can not say I was completely wrong, because I met only a few people, but even so, people are not as different as I thought. The more"hipster" style I was looking for is a bit more common in Europe, Portugal is only one exception -. -

But in the end, when I returned, that's when everything changed in me. Since I met my class, especially Diego, finally after so long, I'm myself, it seems that my inner eventually freed himself and became exterior, so deep down, I turned inside out.
I speak about music, play together, compare drawings, share the graphical diary with the class. And after all this time, I again let my hair grow. Sarcastically, my hair always conveys my current state: It started to look bad and disheveled when I was in the old class, which forced me to keep it short, ( hide myself). Now, is long and crazy like me.
Furthermore, it is the first time that I became somewhat social. I know people, I go out often, and actually yesterday we went out with a guitarist that Cacciari met.

This are the kind of surprises that make me think that it is impossible to predict life. Let me give some examples of things I never thought would happen:

I wanted to play an instrument. 1 month later I started playing bass. 1 year later I joined a band.

We never imagined that we were actually emigrating to Brazil. It's those things that arise and then are ignored. Much less that we would come back in under one year.

I never thought I would even find people with whom I could relate to me. Maybe in Brazil? No, the opposite. When I got back, wich was something that I did not count.

Who knew I'd have better grades when I get halfway through the 10th year than all the rest of the years?

Multimedia Course? And suddenly prefered the arts course?

I envied the friends of my father. I said that such people did not exist beyond them.

I wonder what the future will bring now? I've found some time ago that to me everything is quite unpredictable.
 Incidentally, this is the goal of my blog, explaining these crazy scenes that happen to me.

20 March, 2013

Okay I'm writing this at midnight, but let's pretend that it is still day 20th.
So basically now I'm going to talk about something we all have:

Goals.

Oh yes, goals. There are 3 lifestyles that I the have ambition to achieve, and I hope to achieve:

Youtuber,

Suceful Musician,
or
Those guys who live self-sufficient in the middle of nature.

First, youtuber:
I would like to be like smosh, or PewdiePieeeeee. Every week I would do a video, receive 2 tons of mail from fans per week, and being known, loved and almost worshiped. Heeeell Yeah. If I was a youtuber I would do some series about a crazy dude and his imaginary friend. The series were going to be filmed, but the imaginary friend was a flash animation. I still don't know how to do this, but make the video, convert to Fla., And animate on it shouldn't be very hard, I think ...
I just need a good camera. And perhaps animate better. And perhaps not being a lazy ass. (Frustrating, isn't it? Being so lazy that even though knowing that if I worked hard I could achieve my dreams, and even knowing that, I get the "ass" pasted on the couch)

Second, Musician Success:
Get to know the world in concerts, earning a lot of money for doing what you love?
Hmm, I think it's good. Now, I don't know what kind of band I would like to be on, rock, jazz, funk, acid jazz, indie ...
It all depends. Maybe not rock star, to try out all possible drugs to end murdered or commit suicide is not my thing. In the other hand a jazz band should not earn as much, I think.
Difficulties? Dunno, not everyone has the gift. But as for training, I have been well. But for the training I'm having, I still play a crap.

Third, Those guys who bla bla bla.
Oh, yes. Leave all the stress behind, and live peacefully in the forest, or in a small village.
That if I didn't die of a disease with the nearest hospital in 10 km, or being devoured by who knows what, or die from hunger ...
But I think with all the preparation, it's worth it. It has a lot of "cons", but to me, it has even more "pros".
But, unlike most, I liked living there with someone. I dunno, a girl (with a dude I would end up gay), because I don't think i could live being that alone.

And you? What crazy plans do you have for the future? Are they that hold your ambition, daily inspiration and hopes for the future? ~ Because it's totally not my case! ~
COMMENT! Share.! Keep this blog alive before I get sad!

You do not want me sad, right?

Please?

('-')

18 March, 2013

Ohh hi there, everyone!
Since I have nothing to tell today, I'll dedicate it to enlight your souls and open them to the touch of the one's holy noodle.

Dafuq am I talking about, you ask,

I'm talking about the only God that actually exists, the Flying Spaghetty Monster.

No, I have not gone nuts. I think I'll explain it a little bit better:

There once was a school, Kansas school or something, that gave the students 2 options of study, Catholic, or Scientific. Basically, if you wanted to learn about the evolution theory, or Adam and Eve.
But one man, got frustrated about that. Why only give 2 options? There are a lot more religions that should be considered. With that, he wrote a letter to that school asking them to also give the option to learn about the only true God, Flying Spaghetty Monster (FSM). In the letter he explained how the world was created, etc, etc.

The religion is now official, and it has millions followers (pastafarians), including me. They have actual many solutions to today's problems. What about the global warming? I'll explain that. Was there any global warming 400 years ago? No, but where there PIRATES 400 years ago? Yes. Is there global warming today? Yes, but are there any pirates?? AHHH. Solution: Become a pirate! It's the new trend! FSM will support you, touching you with his holy noodliness. Besides, it's a lot more fun to awnser people that ask you what religion are you "Pastafarian" than "atheist", or "agnostic".

Here, have the dude's blog, and learn more. Have fun checking out the sightenings of FSM as the proof of his presence and also reading hate mail from very religious people. www.venganza.com

RAmen.
(yeah, it's also very fun to pratice this kind of religious traditions.)

17 March, 2013

Hello, there. Today, I promise I'll do something more interesting than just tell what happened today.

I went to Diego's house to play a little bit. I invited Tânia, because she never saw me playing, and I wanted to show her.

As always, we played for 10 minutes and stoped. then he showed all his awesome stuff. We went for a walk in the fields, sand, and climbing rocks, my favorite thing to do. I would love to live in the middle of the nature completely natural, but I'll speak about it in another day.

The point is, While they were together sitted on the sand, and I was for little bit alone, it gave me time to just lay down and think. (nothing to do with them)
It has been some confusing time to me, and all of this new friends and opportunities were kind of a shock, and now that I'm a little more interested in girls, I've been a little more active about it. But I'm tired of trying to be nice to girls to get closer to them. When I get close to someone something allways stops me. So, I quit. I could live alone forever, I don't need anyone. Of course if someone comes to me, ok, I'll be nice. But I'm tired of doing this stuff.
So, basically, I'll just not give a fuck about anything.

This will give me a lot of peace.
(or maybe it will make me alone forever.)

16 March, 2013

Oh hi. So today is the first day of vacation, so, yay.
I spent it very well actually. wake up at 12:00, play bass, eat lunch, play bass t'ill 1:30. I allways play bass when I have nothing to do, so, if I continue like this I'll be the best bassist of the whole time in a month.

Well, I spent the rest of the day on my laptop refreshing 9gag (don't click the link if you want to have sucess in life), but I also created my deviantART account, and uploaded some pics.

Oh! Yes, I drawn myself (cause I love myself and I'm super egomaniac) and it went very well. I don't have a scanner, but here's one that went well too but made in paint.

And while I did all this, I was hearing to Instrumental tracks from Jamiroquai. That guy is the defenition of funky.

One last thing, I never know if my blog pageviews are just people that went to this blog by accident, or are actually followers or people that at least read something, so, please comment something, please! Even if it's just something like "JAMIROQUAI IS FOR GURLZ AND FAGS!" but just do it.
oh, and share my blog please. if you share it, i'll give you a cookie!

15 March, 2013

So, this is my life right now;

1. We're almost leaving our aunt's house to our house, we're just wating to the person we rented the house to to leave, probably during these vacations.

2. I'm having good grades, 14/20 mostly, which I think is good for someone that went to school in the middle of the year.

3. I decided I'm probably not going to quit the art course for the multimedia technical professional course, wich is a course that gives you some professional experience on the subject, but doesn't include some knowledge I need to know if I want to go to college.

4. I have this new friends, Diego, Eduardo (wich we like to call "Cacciari") Tania, and some others. Diego is a vocalist and guitarist in our band, Daydream. He is a cool guy, friendly, and very unique. Cacciari is a nice dude, metalhead, and likes things well done. Tania is a very nice person, and a good friend. My whole class is friendly, so we are a good group.

5. Today I officialy joined their band, after their last concert they did with their other bassist, that took place in school ( they built a stage on the last day of school of this period) which unfortunely didn't go very well because of some tecnical problems, and the sound mixers were stupid (voice too loud, guitars too low )

6. Holydays. OOHH YEAH.

7. Been playing League of Legends with Hugo and sometimes with Cacciari. I still play really bad.

8. Now, on my mind:
I've been thinking on how much I need a girlfriend. I really want to find someone which I can relate to, someone nice, someone I can talk seriously to, show my deep me (even though I also want someone that I can laugh and hang out with). Let's stay with someone in that I can have this kind of conversations with I'm having on this blog. The problem is I'm kind of an idiot and I rarely talk to girls besides some "chit chat". I just really get out of conversation subject. This is the kind of problems that being little social for so much time does. Besides, I never really dated anyone. I think until something happens I'll try to convince myself that I'm the kind of man that can be happily alone. (nice strategy, this one, wait to something to happen.)

9. I also think I should be more crazy and expressive. Inspired by Diego, I think I should be a little more spontaneous and less "mouth shut".

14 March, 2013

Midnight. I was wondering in my mind and got to the conclusion that I should really create a blog for everything I want to share. Expecially, 'cause i'm a bit crazy; actually, my life's a bit crazy.

I mean, do you know a guy that has a crazy hair, is willing to be a  artist/multimedia artist, plays bass in a band, is living in his aunt's house with his brother and mom while his dad is living in Brazil because he had a bad experience while he was living as a imigrate (in Brazil) and now his dad has to stay until he finishes his job project so he can come back, AND has nerd friends, crazy friends, and bro like best friends?

And there's more! Sadness, hapiness, drama, adventure, and exclusive art, iiiiiiiiin "A Diary A Bit Crazy"!!!

I Hope I can make this blog a little interesting. There's lot to tell. I think I'll start with a little review of my whole life:



Since i was a kid, I was extremely polite. Sometimes, I was paranoid with doing the right thing, I used to try to obey every single time I did something wrong it was a shock and I got a lot sad and scared.
When I was 1 year old, I met my best friends: Hugo, and Barbara. Their parents were friends with mine, so we met very early in life.
When I was 2 and a half, I met my brother, Rodrigo. We're since that day, best bros for ever.
As a kid in elementary school, I was very social. Since I was a friendly kid, everyone simply liked me.
When I reached 5th grade, I wasn't so social like that. Kids wanted to be cool, and I wanted to be myself. I had some friends, but it wasn't enough.
I grew, and grew. One day I found my vocation, animation and game developing. I was playing this very pop flash game, "The Fancy Pants Adventures" (follow his blog! bornegames.com) and I got inspired in giving life to simple doodles. My dad got me Macromedia Flash 6, and I created lots of animations, that got lost on our old computer.
My friends, Hugo and Barbara, grew to be completely opposites: Barbara grew to be a normal social person with many friends, while Hugo didn't care much to that and turned in a "otaku".
With me, things staied the same. I wasn't very social in the class, since they grew to be boring people with nothing but a social state to keep, while I totally ignored them and tried to be myself, although and I didn't like to show how different I was, fearing to be judged.

And Then,

Everything happened. My life turned upside down, and then up, and down, and left-and-right-anddiagonalandthenitrolloverandfellandthen now.
The chance to go to Brazil sudently came. Since our dad is Brazillian, we had family there. we thought it was a thing we wouldn't actually do, but we did.
I created a blog, Emigration Experience, that explained how it was. The hardest thing was to say goodbye to Barbara and Hugo.
My mom (that had been depressed) didn't handle the shock of imigration, and got mental problems. We came back to Portugal as fast as we could so she wouldn't lose sanity, but my dad staied to pay the bills, but at least now we are almost putting things back on.
But something else happened. The "so closed" Guilherme Festas went to his art course in the middle of the year. Who he was introduced to? People that didn't had fear to express themselves. I met people like me, people that were more than just douches who care for being pops. I met a guy that had a band. and in these easter vacation, I officialy join the band. I play bass for a year, almost two..
The story now is the classic. "Guy not used to socialize starts to hang out", "Guy not used to socialize starts meeting girls but doesn't know how to get them, gets sad, and tries not to give a fuck".

I'll try to talk about things like that. But I may probably make posts about my ideas for the world, and projects I'm thinking in.

Sorry for the long post,

Guilherme Festas